Sunday, May 21, 2006

Final Thoughts

As my 3 devoted readers have probably determined by now, I think I've decided to give up the blogging game (as if that weren't readily apparent from the 3 month gap in posts). Right now, I feel like I can do absolutely no good, so I've decided to take care of myself for a while. Perhaps I shall return at some future date in a blaze of blogging glory. A couple of final thoughts, though (I, like Jerry Springer, feel the need to wrap things up).

I am convinced that our churches are wrong to treat gay men and lesbians they way they do. Period. We deserve love, full inclusion and affirmation, not pity, dismissal, and revulsion. This is not just another 'issue' the church must deal with. The Church of Christ destroys lives and families when it throws stones. Our church must grow up, move past the pettiness of absurd doctrinal disputes, and move on to the real work of Christ.

Further, while most elders, preachers, and Christian college presidents and professors insist that their opinions are based on the Bible, I am convinced that their condemnation stems more from pure disgust. The refusal of so many to reconsider their doctrine (or to even give a modicum of respect to those whose opinions differ from their own) speaks volumes. Disgust, misogyny, and homophobia, however unconscious, drive the (male) decisionmakers at our universities and in our churches:

Consider, finally, the central locus of disgust in today's United States: male loathing of the male homosexual. Female homosexuals may be objects of fear, or moral indignation, or generalized, anxiety, but they are less often objects of disgust. Similarly, heterosexual females may feel negative emotions toward the male homosexual -- fear, moral indignation, anxiety -- but again, they rarely feel emotions of disgust. What inspires disgust is typically the male thought of the male homosexual, imagined as anally penetrable. The idea of semen and feces mixing together inside the body of a male is one of the most disgusting ideas imaginable to males, for whom the idea of nonpenetrability is a sacred boundary against stickiness, ooze, and death. The presence of a homosexual male in the neighborhood inspires the thought that one might oneself lose one's clean safeness, become the receptacle for those animal products. Thus disgust is ultimately disgust at one's own imagined penetrability and ooziness, and this is why the male homosexual is both regarded with disgust and viewed with fear as predator who might make everyone else disgusting. (Martha C. Nussbaum, Hiding From Humanity: Disgust, Shame, and the Law, p. 113)


The male decisionmakers in our churches are afraid of penetration, of vulnerability, of the so-called "female" traits they, in their (perhaps innocent) ignorance, believe to characterize the homosexual. We must convince our elders, our leaders, to let go of notions of masculinity and femininity, of what makes one a Man, so we can convince them to reconsider their readings of the Biblical texts.

Disgust, that most unchristian of virtues, controls the discussion now. Love must overcome it.

26 Comments:

Blogger Patrik said...

Thanks for the effort you put into these posts. I for one has found reading them valuable(although I discovered your blog very recently). Best of luck in the future to you!

2:19 PM, May 21, 2006  
Anonymous krister said...

GR-It has been a pleasure reading your thoughts; I wholeheartedly agree with your final analysis. I hope that our paths might cross one day in the future. shalom!

6:34 PM, May 21, 2006  
Blogger Matthew said...

good luck. hope to hear from you again sometime.

8:29 AM, May 22, 2006  
Blogger JTB said...

Ah, so I'm the one who gets to prove you underestimated your devoted audience...

I think you're right to diagnose the current conversations as dominated by the disgust dynamic. Till we can get past this, our talk slides past one another, because in reality there are two different conversations happening. Sometimes I'm pretty pessimistic about overcoming this impasse, but surely, someday, this will happen. (In the meantime we can be content for GKB to pursue his calling of battling it out on his blog...)

May your blogging hiatus be a blessing to you. And don't forget to look us up when you're in our neighborhood...

10:15 AM, May 23, 2006  
Blogger Little Light said...

Well this is too bad since I made a point of checking out your blog. At least I won't have to catch up.

11:57 AM, May 23, 2006  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Well, I'm sorry to see you go, and I'm going to miss your posts. There's a logic, organization, and inspiration to your posts that I've looked forward to. I also think you're right about the disgust dynamic, and with the analysis that there's not much room being allowed for honest discussion and change on the issue in the restoration movement.

Elders, preachers, and university presidents will unfortunately continue to find more tolerance for the sins they're more comfortable with. Some of them won't tolerate a gay in their midst, but will gladly accept a lying, greedy wife-beater and call him brother.

6:46 PM, May 23, 2006  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Above post not meant to imply that being gay is a sin, sorry; the last part was meant to contrast what some people hold as sins.

6:47 PM, May 23, 2006  
Blogger Robert said...

I too have just recently found you and am sorry to hear that you won't be blogging. Thanks for your intelligent insight and your brave transparency.

12:04 PM, May 24, 2006  
Blogger Bryan McDonald said...

What the crap...I have been reading your blog for the sole purpose of disproving you to those who I may meet who are like you. You have got to be kidding. The restoration movement is about speaking where the bible speaks; not making it fit our agendas, which is obviously what many people who post here want to do. Speaking of agendas, speaking of having an open mind, why not just accept the fact that the bible was written like it was and stop trying to make it fit. You may not agree with everything in it, heck, I don’t. But you know what, we will be judged by it. I have my faults, I am a sinner, but you don’t see me trying to make sense of it and trying to make it fit into the bible, calling it truth. For the sake of us all, please delete this blog from existence. I wish you luck in finding truth as it applies to life but not god speed when it comes to spreading this filth.

6:27 PM, May 25, 2006  
Blogger J. Brent Bates said...

I will miss your reflections on being gay in the Church of Christ. Thanks for the good that you have done in challenging and beginning to change the hearts of many. But I know how draining it can be to kick your foot against a brick wall. I hope you are able to find an affirming religious community where you live. And don't be discouraged by the overly vocal haters who would have you delete this blog from existence, because I think many more people will continue to be encouraged by your words.

8:23 AM, May 26, 2006  
Blogger jocelyn said...

Thank you for sharing your thoughts and experiences with us. Your story is, unfortunately, similar to the stories of so many voiceless others. Thank you for sharing your voice for awhile. I hope you will continue to do that, just perhaps not in a blog. Blessings and peace to you.

2:52 AM, May 27, 2006  
Blogger pat said...

I've enjoyed reading your thoughts. I believe you have been honest with us and I appreciate that. While I struggle with this issue, I do not ever want to shut down communication about it or convey any emotion of hate or disgust toward you as a child of God.

My prayer for you is that you and your family find peace.

9:42 PM, May 29, 2006  
Blogger Gay Restorationist said...

Bryan,

I don't care to engage you, so I will just say: I hope one day you will come into greater understanding of what the Bible was intended to be, and how it should be used today. It is not a tool of judgment.

Everyone else,

Thanks for the comments. I would like to spend more time here, but I think it best that I move on for a while. I'll let you know when the book hits the stands ;)

11:25 AM, May 30, 2006  
Blogger Kyle said...

I've enjoyed your writing, GR. Peace be with you.

6:11 PM, May 30, 2006  
Blogger TKP said...

TKP is pouting because you are taking a leave from blogging. Your words need to be heard. Will miss you very much!

3:48 AM, May 31, 2006  
Blogger J. Burton said...

Oh, so that was a three-month gap. I thought you just kept posting the same thing over and over. Makes more sense this way.

Thanks for the blog; it's been important to me and my understanding of the various facets of being both gay and Christian, two qualities that for so long have been assumed to be antithetical. For me, though, beyond your blogged words, your own life and person have been important, moving, and convicting to me, so the slight void left by the absence of the GR blog can be easily filled by the occassional visit with the real guy.

On a completely different note, and speaking of disgust, I've always wondered...is it true that all gay people love John Mayer? That's just what I've heard...

10:40 AM, June 02, 2006  
Anonymous Debbie said...

I just found your blog and have learned a lot. Thank you for sharing your deep thoughts. You have opened my eyes.

8:01 PM, June 02, 2006  
Anonymous Angie said...

Well, I'm bummed too! I didn't even get a chance to really get to know you very well! Nonetheless, I thank you for your honesty and the heart you have for our God.

I'm one of those on "the other side" of the issue (since I view gay sex as sin) - yet I feel called to be an advocate for gay people particularly among church circles. There are HUGE groups of people basing their beliefs on a verse or two and a lot of ignorance. Those folks are typically the ones without any meaningful relationships with gay people or with those who have vowed to overcome unwanted same sex attractions (another controversy, I know!). To me, I think people who aren't in relationship with anyone who is gay need to be less vocal. Because if they take the time to genuinely get to know YOU, I know they would be lovingly challenged to re-think their beliefs.

My dream would be for those who do still view homosexuality as sin to STOP sinfully categorizing it as the worst of all sins... and to focus on the two greatest commands - loving God and loving their (gay) neighbors!

GR, maybe our ideals are different, but I think we are moving somewhat in the same direction as far as changing minds - and that's gotta count for something!

I'm thankful to have found your blog & sure hope you'll pick it up again if life allows!

Love,
Angie

11:09 PM, June 14, 2006  
Blogger aworldexplorer said...

GR, I'm sorry to see that you have decided to take a break. I always found your blog very inspiring. I too am a "gay restorationist" and am anxiously waiting for the day when I am openly accepted by those around me (or at least not thought of as a lower class citizen). I graduated from a university in my hometown of Searcy. I wish you happiness and success in everything that is coming your way!

5:29 PM, June 16, 2006  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Hmm, I just found these blogs for the first time today and truthfully I didn't know that I would find these. I know that there are hypocrites in the church who choose to hate us (yes, I'm gay too) but at the same time there are genuine Christians who do love us and are genuinely concerned for us. I do think that being gay is a sin and I do struggle with it, but God hasn't left me out to dry. In fact, he's led me to others who have struggled with the same thing and all I can say is that I have been blessed. I'm not free from it but since I became a Christian and gave this issue in my life over to God I am happier than I have ever been before. I know that God wants to help us all out. I know that he's there with you and if you ask him, he'll help you too.

Lust is wrong, is it not? Why should the lust of a man for a man be viewed as any different? As far as God is concerned, being gay is just as much a sin as being a heterosexual adulterer. But even they have forgiveness. So do we. God Bless, man. He's helping me. He can and wants to help all of us.

8:51 PM, June 16, 2006  
Blogger Little Light said...

Angie - you're absolutely right. Relationship should be the primary focus regardless of what side you are on this issue.

11:48 AM, June 19, 2006  
Blogger americangerman said...

Quite thought provoking article:
http://www.msnbc.msn.com/id/14337492/
Hope all is well in your day to day adventures

7:16 AM, August 14, 2006  
Anonymous Not Bishop Duncan said...

Bryan McDonald--you are about the Bible, you say? Then I assume you are about to expand the Defense of Marriage Act to prohibit divorce too....because Our Lord calls divorce "adultery" in the Gospel of Matthew.

What's that you say...? That Jesus' words must be interpreted in light of his times...? Then how do you justify your refusal to reinterpret Saint Paul?

7:57 AM, August 14, 2006  
Blogger c said...

GR,
don't know if you'll get this, but thanks for allowing us to peek into the window of your soul. i hope our tribe as well as other traditions can fulfill our mandate to love others like Jesus. blessings.

9:46 AM, August 21, 2006  
Blogger jana said...

Well... divorce is kinda wrong too.

Gosh, the bible has been watered down that it's scary what everyone is saying now.

Yes Jesus words should be read in context but heck that doesn't mean you should change what He is trying to say.

In the Bible, homosexuality is wrong, Divorce is wrong (Incidentally He said, you can divorce out of say... marital unfaithfulnes... may I point out He never said anything about remarrying?)

Stop watering it down and changing it into something old-fashioned.

I don't hate homosexuals. I got a bunch of friends who are gay.

It's just that, it's wrong. Yes, it's a sin. Wife-beating? Sin. Drug taking? Sin. Homosexuality, I'm sorry but yes that's a sin too.

We all have our own little sinful world, our sins that we cover and hide, but wake up. A sin is a sin.

The Bible doesn't change. And for those out there who are hating hurting or hating gays, lesbians, whatever.

Wake up morons. You guys deserve more of the beating than this people do.

Yeesh.

All in all, I hope that God leads you wherever is best for Him and for you.

God bless and I hope you don't hate me for what I just typed.

7:11 PM, November 05, 2006  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

As a former Lay Reader for the Church Of Christ when I was in the navy and a former Theology student. I find that you have missed the mark on this subject.(Scripturaly speaking of course).
The scriptures are clear that we can not accept what God conciders an abomination. Homosexuals and Prostitutes will not recive the kingdom of God.
Yes you can live a celebate life style be gay and never act on it and stand a chance of salvation. Celebacy is not easy but it can happen. To break the chain of sin is the key.
Incase you think im wrong read Judges and Revelations for the rules and punishments for those who do this sin.
Even Paul said you can leave all sin behind you. If you chose to not act in the sin you describe here you will be forgiven. To continue you acting upon it then yes you will be disfellowshiped. To cast the Imoral Brother from among you.
We live the truth in love. and I speak with knowlage in this for my uncle was gay. He continued his sin till he died in 1988. I loved my uncle not his life style. He was Disfellowshipped in 1977 when he left his family and told the church that he didnt belive that he was going to go to hell for his life style.
I try not to think of what the Church is becoming today. To many people wanting to change God's Word so they can feel good about living in the sins of their choice. this is indeed disturbing.

1:34 AM, December 04, 2006  

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